this little guy
actually my dream
As humans, we waste the shit out of our words. It’s sad. We use words like “awesome” and “wonderful” like they’re candy. It was awesome? Really? It inspired awe? It was wonderful? Are you serious? It was full of wonder? You use the word “amazing” to describe a goddamn sandwich at Wendy’s. What’s going to happen on your wedding day, or when your first child is born? How will you describe it? You already wasted “amazing” on a fucking sandwich.
I’ve heard depression described as a black cloud that follows you around, heard the commercials saying “Depression hurts”. Neither of these come close to describing the life draining set of emotions that align perfectly causing the downfall of my desire to do.. anything.
To me, depression is wondering why your boyfriend wants to date you, keen to any hint that someone (anyone) may not, thinking that anything you want do is just not worth the effort. Depression is not wanting to shower, or work, or eat and not really knowing why. At the time it feels comfortable, familiar; just laying in your bed for hours numb to any sort of happiness or satisfaction. Getting up only to smoke cigarettes or going to the store for a bottle of wine. At the time, it doesn’t seem that bad, like I said, its comfortable. But when its over, you look back and think about how cold you were towards the people you care about the most, how cold you were to yourself. How you let self-destruction win once again.
I have looked for the signs and have found no ‘triggers’. It’s just a steady flow of water that builds up against a dam, and from time to time, that dam breaks and washes away my happiness and ambitions. For awhile I’m happy, genuinely happy, and then all of the sudden I’m not.
Everyone gets sad, but not everyone experiences depression. I wonder what that’s like. Who I would be, what I would have accomplished in life without this monkey on my back?
I Don’t Know How Much Vodka I Put In This But I’m Going To Drink It Anyways: a memoir
This drink tastes awful, but I can’t waste alcohol: a sequel
I’m going to get a bigger glass and add more mixer and have way too much to drink: The Thrilling Conclusion
Post-it Notes Left on the Train
Writer and illustrator October Jones, the creative genius behind Text From Dog and these funny train commute doodles, is at it again with these hilarious motivational post-it notes that he leaves on the train and in other random places.The upbeat doodles, which star Jones’ adorable character Peppy the Inspirational Cat, convey positive and funny messages meant to motivate daily commuters. Whether you’re feeling the Monday blues or in need of some encouragement, Jones’ delightful post-it notes are sure to brighten your day and remind you just how awesome you are.
It seems that Facebook is just a reality show of people’s boring ass lives.